My second and youngest son, Ian, went to high school for the last time Friday and graduates at 17 today. With that ends a long chapter of his life, his mother’s and mine. Thousands of young adults and parents across El Paso and around the country will go through the same rite this month.
Friday morning, Ian agreed, a little reluctantly, to meet me in front of Coronado High so I could take a photo of him before he went in. It's a nice picture that will go with the one I snapped the day a very little boy with a bright, red lunch box walked into Peace Lutheran Church’s pre-k school for the first time.
Then, as on Friday, I drove away fighting back tears without fully understanding why. But on both occasions, I knew things would be different from that day on, and that was at once joyous and heart-wrenching.
Last days are like that.
I remember driving Ian to school for what I knew would be the last time before he got his first car last year. Three years earlier, I said something to both of them about it when his brother, Chris, got an old, $1,200 car and couldn’t wait to start driving himself to school.
So ended the mad mornings of breakfasts together and rushing out, taking one to Coronado and the other to Franklin High (that’s another story), joking and squabbling over assignments, grades, music, uncombed hair, no jackets, lost jackets, mean teachers and lunch money that would be ill spent on junk food, burgers, fries, pizza and Coke.
Nobody eats at school! We did. Yeah, that was then!
That sweet ritual ended abruptly, though it was repeated a few times when Chris' car broke down or ran into something. Mornings became easier, less stressful and more solitary.
Then, came the next question: “When are you going to get a job?”
It, too, is one of those rites of passage. And when the oldest finally landed an ice cream shop job and started earning money for gas and entertainment, that was great. Who could complain?
But his hours were awful. There were suddenly fewer nights, dinners and lazy weekends together. Quick camping trips and vacations became a problem. Our time together was growing short, and I knew it.
Then came college, that long ride across the state together and the longer drive back to El Paso without Chris.
Ian has gone the coffee house employment route, and it too has meant long hours at work, counseling about the inevitable testing by a nasty boss and hopes, recently realized, for a better new one.
In a couple of months, we'll be taking a drive across Texas together, and I’ll come back alone.
For parents, letting go and last days are so much a part of two decades of childrearing and so common to all of us that you might say it’s hardly worth writing about, or reading. But we come to know through this process -- common to all, yet unique to each -- that it is a profound experience that can go well or tragically from one child to the next.
It also happens to be one hell of a ride, full of joy and pain, and the most important one most of us will take on this earth.
I still remember the sage advice I and two other fathers received from Alicia Castro, principal of the former Olga Kohlberg Pre-K and Kindergarten School on Doniphan: Spend all the time you can with them now, because in no time, they'll be gone. Trite but true.
My biggest complaint about my boys' final years of secondary education -- aside from the wasted days of mind-numbing rehearsals for TAKS and other such tests -- is the fact that they took a combined five years of Spanish and emerged unable to carry on a simple conversation or even ask for a fork in a restaurant.
Now, thinking about it, my biggest complaint is the thing for which I probably should be most grateful. I mean, if that's my major gripe after all these years, I'd have to call it a blessing.
David Crowder is a reporter for Newspaper Tree.

















border yankee
June 8, 2008
Thanks David for an excellent article. "common to all, yet unique to each of us"... really says a lot.
Raising my children is both my biggest responsibility and largest blessing and while it seeems that i am more and more aware of that as time passes - an article such as this one that you wrote - helps to remind me and put things in yet another perspective.
Ken G
June 8, 2008
How time flies. Years ago I worked for Mini-Micrographics and his mom would bring Ian to the office before he started school. Now he is off to college.
Sam Moore
June 8, 2008
A lovely article loaded with helpful remembrances and information and the value of taking and keeping photos of the children. The comment about Spanish classes could easily apply to my high school days in the 1940's and we in El Paso can only hope that English or bilingual classes for the Spanish speakers have better results.
Christina Montoya
June 8, 2008
What a touching story. As the mother of two young boys boys it really reminded me to cherish the time with them I have now, because I will be in your shoes soon enough. Thanks David, and keep up the good work.
Elizabeth
June 9, 2008
How beautiful, he is so cute at pre-k, and grew up to be a handsome boy. Best of lluck to you all. I got teary eyed.
Elizabeth
June 9, 2008
How beautiful, he is so cute at pre-k, and grew up to be a handsome boy. Best of lluck to you all. I got teary eyed.
Cynthia Wise
June 9, 2008
No way. I cannot believe Ian is already a high school graduate. It seems it was just the other day you were proudly declaring that you were going to be a father (before Chris' birth).
It is with reminders like these that I remember to take one more hug, one more kiss and one more look as my daughter heads to school each day. Time passes far too quickly.
We are both getting old my friend.
albert r
June 9, 2008
David, a real chip off the ol' block. Congratulations!
Great article.
Patrick McDonnell
June 9, 2008
Wonderfully done Dave. The writing and the parenting.
Jennifer McDonnell
June 9, 2008
Great article Crowder - I love the photos.
Ray E. Gilbert, Jr.
June 9, 2008
David, What a fine tribute. I remember you playing in the front room of your home with two young boys. Both now grown and soon the youngest will be away from any control by parents. I think you speak for all of us. We all have those kind of memories but not the ability to put them the way you do. Thank you,
Margie Rodriguez Le Sage
June 10, 2008
Great piece! Well written and a number of interesting philosophical angles tugged at my heart. Perhaps my only reservation in fully lauding the life span pondering was the part on the "nasty boss." People who hire grown teenagers often are fulfiling a difficult role in young persons' development, particularly if they have not been taught to "work" at home. The stories supervisors can tell!
Tony Pearson
June 11, 2008
I drove three across Texas and cried each and every time. Thanks for bringing back some bittersweet memories. Love and cherish while you can, they grow up and leave us too soon.
Jessica Valdez
June 13, 2008
Thanks for making me cry on a friday afternoon. I needed that. Although I don't have kids, it reminded me of when my parents drove me up to UT and how we fought the entire time in Austin (over where to eat, where to turn, where to go). Then they drove off on Sunday morning (later I learned my parents cried the whole way back), I was so excited they were gone because I was young, brave and ready to start my own independent life (supposedly) and then immediately regretted feeling that way the first time I got homesick. Man, I felt that way the entire time I was up there. It was great learning to appreciate the parentals! Thanks.
Teresa Montgomery
June 16, 2008
A wonderful article David! I can just hear the comments from Ian when you told him you wanted to take that picture in front of Coronado - miss that kid!
Ruth Hollands
June 24, 2008
Nice article Dave...I've got 10 more years to go and without you giving me a wake up call 5 years ago I probably wouldn't be loving every minute of it now.
Ruth Hollands
June 24, 2008
Hey Dave, I bet Ian didn't like that story!!! Since we are in the frame of publishing our children...here's one about mine:
Laundry News
Congratulations to the socks! One hundred percent of the socks in the Laundry were in pairs and not screwed up. This is a maiden victory for the sock team and all the clothes are cheering for them to continue the season in similar style.
J's trousers also deserve honourable mention, despite mulotiple pockets these trousers reacheed the laundry empty of illegal objects. However, C's black trousers were not so successful and had to be emptied by the laundry sorter.
Underpants are not having a good season. Three used pants were in the wash in total and they all belonged to the same person, meaning that in one week two boys had between them only worn three pairs of underpants, not necessarily their own!
There were four pairs of completely clean underpants in the wash -- so clean that the laundry sorter could breathe through them. This constitutes complete failure to understand the rules of the game (all underpants must reach the wash dirty and there must always be a minimum of three pairs per person, per week).
Finally, two swimming towels completely failed to appear despite having been in constant use for a week.
The general contents of the basket was well sorted and not too smelly or unpleasant to handle. The clothes voted that this week's laundry was overall a succes.